WHEN YOU REACH THE LEDGE OF KNOWING IN THIS LIFE, THERE IS ALWAYS MORE!
Life doesn’t have to be painful, although uncomfortability is necessary. That is an indicator you are breaking out of the next shell. Like a Russian doll except you get bigger. You expand. ~ CA
In 2019 I had a push into what many refer to as Spirit Science. This idea goes by many names and is also nameless as I’ve come to know. I have always been a very giving and guided being on this planet. Even with all I have experienced I did not allow that to change my heart. In fact it pushed me to want to give and share more of the love I had overflowing from within. A Deep Undeniable Love for this awe-some experience and every being I did and didn’t encounter. I often did not really understand how I was able to put painful experiences aside and deny the idea of grudges, especially when I had a lot of examples and reasons to do the exact opposite. This inner guidance to follow my heart led to some rather uncomfortable experiences where I felt deep sadness or loneliness. At one point I was in a state of what could be described as depression for many reasons and because I was so used to being able to push past the feelings I deemed as unnecessary from a young age this was a very difficult moment in time for me. Between sleeping, barely eating, unhealthy attachments and having a long time unhealthy relationship with drugs and alcohol I had a divine spark of inspiration to write. I had been down about so many things that I thought was going wrong in my life, I felt like a failure to myself and others and forgot one of the things that helped me through the most difficult challenges before. The feelings were not new since life was not as easy as I made it look. The difference was, before I automatically did what brought me joy in moments of distress. It is likely all of the ways I was indulging in my sadness I turned my back on my best friend, expression. I also acknowledge I was working so hard without asking for help I did not know rest. I wrote this song called SLEEP, to express how I really felt and by the end of the song I received the message from inner knowing that I have been through ALOT. Witnessed the resilience of my bloodline and this moment was not going to be the end of me.
My intuition led me to reach out to a friend who had been spending a lot of time in the studio and she invited me to her upcoming session. With loads of excitement and a bit more enthusiasm for living I found my YouTube track and was ready to record. Officially the second full song I had ever wrote, I was able to knock it all out in less than the hour she gifted me and sound good doing it. Which was a surprise to none. After the session I got to chat with my friend as friends do and we came to the conclusion that I just needed to meet some new people and put myself out there a little to do it. I have always been very traditional by nature, so when she suggested I make a online dating profile I was disturbed and yet I felt she was making good points, so I did it. Me being me I was only really looking for smoking buddies because I did like to share and I used to smoke ALOT. After a couple weeks I matched with a guy who had pretty good conversation and was also going through a challenging time. So who better to indulge with. Now I know you meet a mirror at certain angle’s everywhere you go. We met up to match (iykyk) and he was so kind. I know gawd sent him my way to have that exact conversation and introduce me the YouTube Channel SpiritScience (now known as SpiritVerse). He showed me the video “A Vision of The Future” and we talked about how rare it is to meet someone who just wants to get to know you without all the extra stuff from the jump off.
It’s always beautiful to look back and see where you were given an opportunity turned magical gift when you choose to do something you wouldn’t “normally” do. Essentially, I unconsciously learned resistance invites expansion. It took me a few more years to bring that knowledge to my conscious mind, and it has all been divine timing. Funny enough I did not see that young man again after that conversation. I had a lot of intentional healing to do and tools learned from this new found YouTube channel to practice, that I gave a lot of my time. Despite still indulging, sometimes more than I intended to, I had a big pick me up after that. I got a job, was feeling like me again and, signed my first lease at 19. The battle was subconscious vs conscious. Basically me vs. Me.
I often had a hard time feeling how I was breaking free from old ideas that at this point I had clung to. I did drink a lot less and that was an accomplishment for me, that made me feel proud but I still smoked daily. Although I have a beautiful mind that thrives under any condition, at this time I was just doing it out of habit. This didn’t stop until I tried to stop for the third time and realized I couldn’t stop. I had been under so much pressure from myself to reach these goals, and when they didn’t turn out how I thought they should I decompressed by suppressing everything and smoking was the easiest way for me to do it. I was so hard on myself that was the only way I could stop the intrusive thoughts from beating my heart up. This analysis of my relationship to smoking only happened after I stopping cold turkey due to a tower moment that brought me to my senses in a way that said if something doesn’t change now, I don’t know what I’m gonna do. I still had dreams to expand Cosmic Affinity which started in March of 2020 (Happy 5th Be Earth Month CA). I wanted the world to know what sound did for me and create sounds to share the message of truth with all. I was intentionally healing, practicing ancient healing modalities, and doing extensive research but I knew in order for me to reach the next level of Me, I had to do something drastic. My body resisted at first but once I removed myself from the environment, as scary as that was, it was easier to think clear and not crave something I really didn’t need. Come to find out with reflection and honesty I didn’t even want. I only did it because I saw others doing it and once I started I was simultaneously seeking out suppression of feelings I didn’t know how to deal with. You always find what you look for.
Following 6 years of trial and error to find out how I embody the essence of the aligned mind that gave me the name Affinity and connected me to the Cosmos I reached a state of centered love. A state of flow that took sometimes intense practice and accountability. 10,000+ hours of research on the story of the earth, constant practice to share the gift of voice I have meticulously cultivated, soul much unconditional love, and 4 websites later I have cracked my code. I recognized I have everything I need to get to the version of me that comes next. Why? Because I have always been exactly who I was meant to be, and the journey was all for me to know exactly who and who’s I am when I share these next projects with you. Nothing happens out of coincidence and I know sometimes the feelings experienced while becoming who you’ve always been can create thoughts and actions that seem to express the opposite of divine timing. That is why I have taken the time to put together an e-book that culminates the science behind my life’s gift to love others beyond “rational” comprehension and the last 6 years of practice loving myself to bring my soul family the 9 Chakra System. I have known about this system since 2019 and subconsciously and consciously implemented it to expand beyond what I initially thought I was here for. Not because I have a new calling. Because I was thinking small, and the calling is bigger than I consciously dreamed. The Most High sees beyond our limited idea of self. The Creator of all things that is, was, and ever will be knows that each of us, with the billions of vessels here on this earth is meant for something significantly powerful. It doesn’t take anything away from one another, even being in the same field. It gives us all and the source of all the ability to expand. If you want to see yourself how the Most High Creator Source sees you, the 9 chakra system is your highway to doing so. As it is inevitable. I will always declare that no matter which route you take, you will always reach your highest potential. This is just some insight from a huge heart of how to get there.
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I love you x Infinity
Affinity